  What to say? I have so much to say, yet I can't find the words or time to say it all. Lately I have been thinking a lot. Thinking seems to have overpowered me. I have been questioning a lot of the things I have been doing. I know a lot of these things are wrong..but, I do them anyway. These past two days have been the best ever. They were filled with craziness and I love it. It's finally summer, and it's only three days in and I'm already having so much fun.
I am throughly enjoying not having to do anything for an entire month before I go back to the life I can't stand. In a month I will be returning to dance. This is something that I would usually loook forward to, but not this year. I have decided to quit company and I tried to quit completely, but no, that just wasn't going to happen. I am not happy about being forced to do something I have no desire to do. I am too stubborn for my own good.
I am kind of dredding going back. It's going to be weird now, just taking regular classes and doing solos. Everyone keeps asking me why I quit and I can't help but get fustrated becuase I hear it so often now. I am tired of only doing one thing. Dance has been a huge part of my life, well, all of my life for so long that I have never had the chance to do other things.
This was partially my fault for not wanting to try new things because dance is like a comfort zone to me. It's all I have ever done and I am staring to accept the fact that I am good, so why do anything else? Although this year I have become completely fustrated with everyone and everything. Well, hopefully that wont happen anymore and everyone can just shut up and dance. 
