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 ryan adams,  love is hell NOTABLE QUOTE: nbsp;  " i was either 14 or 15,  but i got it.
 - me " alana,  whatever it is that you do at the abortion clinic is not considered 'birth. '" jt &
nbsp;  & nbsp;  today is thursday,  marking the return of my grandparents for more house renovations,  as well as the worst day of my life.
nbsp;  i spent the better part of the day painting the basement,  though i would have just as easily lit a match. nbsp;  i got paint in my eye,  which is an experience that all should enjoy,
 not only for the warm,  burning sensation,  but so that all of your immediate and extended family members can stand idly by and watch you wash it out. nbsp;  heart- warming,
 really.  & nbsp;  around 5,  i thought my luck was changing,  as my grandmother prepared a bountiful feast of roast beef,
 buttered potatoes,  corn on the cob,  and hot rolls. nbsp;  this was my favorite meal at their house when i was a child,  and still is.
nbsp;  i was too hot,  as it were,  to eat a large helping of the meal,  so i just ate a few bites and then settled in for a much- needed nap.
 & nbsp;  when i awoke from a lovely slumber filled with dreams of corn,  i went into the kitchen to fix another plate. nbsp;  to my horror,
 my grandmother informed me that while i was peacefully sleeping,  my uncle had maliciously& nbsp; eaten all 12 of the remaining pieces of corn. nbsp; nbsp;
 & nbsp;  my heart broke.  & nbsp;  this was no ordinary corn.
nbsp;  it was Fresh Farmer& nbsp; Corn, nbsp; the kind you&
nbsp; buy at a& nbsp; produce market. nbsp;  when your favorite food is corn,
 as any of my friends can attest to and also is plainly listed on& nbsp; the favorite foods section of my blog ~  nothing is worse than not& nbsp; being able to enjoy Fresh Farmer Corn.
nbsp;  & nbsp;  that fucking asshole.  & nbsp;
 & nbsp;  i really should be more forgiving. nbsp;  granted,  Fresh Farmer&
nbsp; Corn is delightful,  but not life- threatening if one is denied the priviledge of eating it. nbsp;  also,
 and probably more important,  my& nbsp; uncle is retarded. nbsp;  while he's 40 something in physical age,
 he's really more like 12,  mentally. nbsp;  and he is a big guy,  so it's likely that normal& nbsp;
size portions wouldn't do much for him. nbsp;  and he is a& nbsp; very sweet man,  so it's unlikely that he had any knowledge of the pain he was systematically administering to me when he sat down and ate those 12 pieces of delicious,
 sweet,  god- fearing corn.  & nbsp;  but i'm not forgiving,
 compassionate,  or understanding. nbsp;  i'm judgemental,  pissed- off,
 and& nbsp; hungry. nbsp;  & nbsp;
which is why i am currently eating all the doritos i can because they are uncle jim's favorite. nbsp;  & nbsp;  i am involved in a dorito/ F.
F. Corn battle with a retarded man,  who is none the wiser.  & nbsp;  not my finest hour.
nbsp;  a bit tacky. nbsp;  depressing,  really.  &
nbsp;  & nbsp;  & nbsp;  i'm done.
nbsp;  and ashamed.  & nbsp;  & nbsp;
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