  I am: constantly trying to change myself for the better. I think: I should stop smoking pot impulsively. I should focus on my goals. that I think too much and should stop thinking about "thinking too much. " I know: that everything will be better tomorrow. I want: to be a millionaire!!!
(joke); to live a life in the country; A car; For things to go my way. I have: a collection of tickets and flyers that were given to me (whether I attended them or not)/ clippings of my personal interest; All these gadgets at home that I like to play with when I get the time; A toolbox when I get arts-fartsy or when there is a need to have something fixed; Archived documents such as: Lester Bangs revues, Anarchist Cookbook, etc. ; Moodswings. I wish: for something to look forward to (an idea, a project...), a better job. A Jeep Cherokee. For a Laptop.
A digital camera. Money. I hate: no one, they just hate me. When I am not able to control moodswings. The sewage system in the PHILIPPINES THAT CAUSES ALL THE FLOODS WHEN IT RAINS EVEN IF IT IS JUST FOR A LITTLE WHILE. People who step on my shoes or my toes.
I hear: my thoughts going "duh???!!! " I fear: that I might not find what I am looking for. Getting mugged. Motorcycles. I miss: the beach. I wonder: when I would break the axle and roll a straight line instead of round and round.
If I'll ever be able to do the things I say I will. I regret: not boldly expressing feelings to people. Succumbing to peer pressure. Making bad choices. I love: Haagen Dazs ice cream. Faust wine from "Big.Sky.Mind.
" festivals or gigs. Stephanie (my little sister). My CD collection. I ache: when I am misunderstood. When my mom says things without thinking what it actually means... When I am sore about my life.
When I feel so helpless and dumbstricken. I always: go to work on time. Buy CDs. Forget to return O.P.P on time (or ASAP). Drink. I am not: anyone's bitch.
I dance: when no one is home and I am all alone. In my room. I sing: when I am alone. When I am in the bathroom. To take out the angst (thanks to videoke). When I am in a good mood.
All the time. I cry: when I feel so helpless and dumb stricken. When I just feel like I need to cry and let it all out. I fight: only when I am provoked. I write: angst on pieces of paper and throw it away. Emails to my cousins about my bittersweet life.
My name when I am bored. to remember myself 20 years from now. i lose: myself. i confuse: myself. Angelina jolie/ charlese theron/ashley judd. names unintentionally or when i am drunk.
i listen: to music depending on my mood. to my friends and family when they have something to say. i can usually be found: at work. or sleeping. or with Mendel most of the time. i need: some love.
some cash. a fresh start. i am happy about: what i have become so far. the fruits of my labor. being in good company. my relationships with my friends.
i should: be more open. lessen my temperaments. study computer graphics. enhance skills on photography. finish my spanish lessons. should do things that is good for me. 
