  I am working right now. I have job working with little kids and everyday they get to go on the computer for 45 min. and do whatever they want. I decide to go online. Anyways....to me I have no real relationship.
It all seems unreal. We barely ever talk. He always tells me that he will call and he wants to hangout but we never do. The thing that everyone should know about my boyfriend is that he is a major bad ass. He has been in a lot of trouble before. He told me that he wants a girl who is pretty much down to earth and isn't as messed up as all his other girlfriends. Almost as if he wants to change and have a real girlfriend and not the kind were you just get a piece of ass from. Atleast thats what I got out of it when we talked. Its like he is a bad guy that wants to turn good but there is too much of a bad guy that he can never be good. Its not that I don't believe that he can't be good ......cuz I really think he can , its just that right now he isn't doing a really good job in showing me that he wants to have a real girlfriend. Then its like he would tell himself that he is a good boyfriend and he would tell his friends like,"Yea thats my girlfriend right there....my real girlfriend.
" Its like he uses me to be the good guy who he wants to be. But when he wants to mess around and not have a real relationship he will cheat and go screw some other girl and cheat on me but then come back to me and have the real relationship again. Even though he denies cheating on me ....I still have a really strong gut feeling that he is. I mean I can't prove that he is cheating on me.
I only hear stories, and you can't always rely on other people for your information. Plus I am getting half the info from his ex girlfriend who i think still wants to be with him. So I am sorta stuck on who to believe. The story is just so long ..and sort of all sounds the same but it just feels good talk about or let out one of the two. 
