  July 28. it's so sad. dandan has left already. it's really really sad... there were out-of-the-blue moments wherein i would just burst into tears. i couldn't help but be senti. i couldn't help but remember how we were as friends. 3 years.
3 short years. dammit. it really was too short. kung kelan nagka ayusan kami from our problems, saka pa sya aalis. haaay... i wanna cry again. i miss him.
i miss dandan. i miss my best friend. i wasn't even able to concentrate last night. i had puffy eyes in the morning. ewan. i can't help but think how i failed him in more ways than one.
yeah. i failed as a friend, all the more, i failed as a best friend, somehow. and now i can't even redeem myself, coz he's gone. you know what else sucks? i don't think he cares for me as much now. i read anjo's text-conversation with dandan, and it's really cool of them.
i mean... basta. you don't wanna know. nakakainggit lang. i don't wanna be too obssessed about it... but, you know... i even called him up 10 minutes before his boarding. it was too awkward... moments of silence. i didn't know what to say.
i just told him to take care, make us proud, that i love him so much. yet i didn't get any response. i dunno. i twas just too sad talaga.... napaiyak ako when i hung up the phone. kahit sa bahay pa lang nya, napapaiyak na ko. margie saw me shed a tear.
dandan was crying in the car. it was all too surreal... he left. he left for the states already... haaaaay... i dunno. mixed emotions. basta i'll miss him talaga. i gave him so many gifts pa, just to remember me... yet i don't think he's gonna appreciate that.
i wish i could be his best friend again. i really do. i blew many chances, but i'm still praying we can be best friends again. he posted his first message from the states in our yahoo groups. throughout the day, i just keep on thinking of how he is doing already. i wish i could message him again.
ashley and i really miss him. panay miss him na lang. sorry. but i really do miss him.... i took him for granted. i put all the blame on myself... i don't want to blame him. i've never been right.
i'm always wrong. when will i ever be right. ang sabog ko. un lang masasabi ko. im so sabog right now... i've got another long test coming up tomorrow. di pa ko nag-aaral.
i miss seeing him online in YM. whenever i see his name in my phonebook, nalulungkot din ako. when i see his pictures, nalulungkot pa rin ako. another thing, it's so nice of RG to cry for his brother. i'm gonna miss going to their house, just making tambay. im gonna miss all those stuff.
im gonna miss dandan in all our barkada gimiks. kulang na kami. it's just not right. im gonna miss him in our batangas trips. wish he was still here. im gonna miss hugging him.
im gonna miss the old days... back when i really felt his love for me. hay. i'll be okay. i'll make it a point to keep in touch with him.... i'll even call him on some ocassions... 
