  Today,  I woke up late.  somehow,  I cannot wake up.  maybe,  it was because,
 I didn’ t sleep well last night.  woke up a couple of times.  I had muscle ache on my calves…  woke up to apply the muscle cream on my legs.  anyway,
 I thought I would be late for school today.  but,  surprisingly,  I wasn’ t…  there wasn’
t any traffic jam and I got there on time.  Class today was boring…  kena my pem 3 hour lesson…  reporting his words again and again…  anyway.  I smsed my darling a lot of times today.
 however,  I got only a few replies…  and the replies often were not longer than a page.  somehow,  I told her that I thinkone of the girls in my class isn’ t as attractive that I think she was…
 her tone.  I gather that she was jealous and angry.  her tone told me all that.  however,  I dare not jump to any assumptions…  after all,
 she’ s right.  why was I looking at that girl in the first place?  Stupid me…  haiz.  My school today.
 had this cca orientation thing.  I stayed back to look at the ccas…  I took an interest in the soccer,  ambassadorial team and the aikido club…  on the way home,  it stared raining.
 when it reached the bus stop,  it was drizzling.  so I took a run…  I hugged my bag.  cos I didn’ t wan my notes to get wet…
 my pants were too big…  and,  it sort of slipped…  I pulled it up and continued running.  when I reached home,  I took a shower.
 whn I came out of the shower,  darling was already home.  but I was reading some notes so I delayed calling her.  when I called her,  I was talking bout the cca’ s…
 I told her I wanted to join the soccer team.  immediately said no.  I was shocked.  I thought she would support me in whatever I do…  and then the ambassadorial team.  she asked me what is it…
 I tried to explain…  I really tried…  but I couldn’ t…  then she smth…  she said.
 okay never mind…  I’ m not interested…  I felt so sad.  haiz…  feel so lost.
