  i think i dunno what to say to her le.  dunno what is wrong with me.  i'm like,  as she said,  always asking,  saying the same things.
 so.  and.  every 3- 4 mins or so,  she'll be like typin so furiously away on her keyboard.  and,
 whatever i say,  she won't be concentrating.  and.  okay.  i dunno if it is my fault or hers.  and.
 i dunno why,  she speaks,  either too loudly,  or too softly.  it is not that i dun pay attention.  it's like hard to hear and understand.
 and when she has to repeat,  she gets so pissed off.  sounds as though talking to me is a chore.  i dunno.  as she said,  i am a burden to her.
 a needless burden.  i'm a person.  and to be another person's " needless burden"  it is not good.  not good at all.
 and i am wondering.  if i really should leave her alone.  for now at least.  i really miss her.  I MISS HER A LOT.  it's crazy.
 i am crazy.  i dun even know if she feels the same way.  i dun even know if she cares for me.  i dun know.  all i know.  is that.
 the way she speaks to me,  is like i'm irritating.  i.  haiz.  life.  so many things happening to me.
 now,  my heart is racing.  always like that.  sit down,  feel like vomitting.  stand up,
 see black dots in front of my eyes.  it's time.  heaven is calling me soon.  well.  we all have to go sometime don't you all think so.  early or late.
 as long as you live life to the fullest.  did i?  i think i did.
