  aah, instant messengers, hate them while loving them at the same time and can't live without them. been using icq for 6 yrs now. tho i think i'm gonna delete it sometime this week just cuz nowadays everyone's using msn. started to use msn only since last sept, am soo slow haha. so my msn experience is not even a yr yet! been thinking these days that it's no point really in keeping 2 programs while it's mostly the same ppl on both lists anywayz so me gonna delete the icq account. i like to keep things simple. tho somehow 2 months ago i started to do things to complicate myself up. someone found me thru msn search and wanted to add me. i thought the guy's profile sounded really interesting.. well.. something about he's the ceo of an internet marketing firm *LOL* and he's only 27! so yah, i wanna know how he got to be the ceo at such a young age! but since the email account i use with msn includes my real name and stuff, i don't wanna add the guy using that account. i don't like to tell ppl personal info before i get to talk to them. so i signed up a different msn account to add the guy.
yet i never saw him online and i rarely used that account anywayz. so that 1st month i've had that account it was basically just idle. later on johnny sent me this cool msn add-on program that let u put up big pix. and u get to use multiple accounts with it. around that same time i got screwed, and these 3 weird guys tried adding me on icq. i didn't know at first what the whole thing was about, so i talked to them.
when they asked for msn account, i just gave them that new one then cuz it's for ppl i dunno in real life anywayz. now that i think about it, i don't really know why the hell i went to sign up that new account?!?? hmm so far there's only 5 guys on it. am thinking these days i'm gonna delete that account. it's too much trouble and weird having these 2 msn accounts.
why the hell did i go sign it up to complicate myself anywayz?!? jeeez. sometimes i think i am sooo fickle. is strange actually for a taurus to be like that. i thought taurus ppl are supposed to be not liking change?! yet i change sooo often. haven't made new net friends in like 3-4 yrs. and the past month talking to these guys have got me into thinking about the whole net friends business again.
it's sooo weird. this one guy who found me from the whole shit, so we didn't start off well and of course i have bad image of him cuz of that, he's sooo hung up on me for some reason that's way beyond my comprehension! i'm sooo goddamn cold to him yet he's soo masochistic or something he still keeps wanting to talk to me!
jeeez.
cuz seriously, if i were him, i would never wanna talk to myself! hah! on one hand i have to say he's good to be soo persistent, yet it's actually really annoying to me that he acts like that. he kept asking me to talk on the phone and would just give me his cell#. i told him i'm not interested in that at all and kept telling him no way, yet he still doesn't get it!!!
am sooo tired each time having to deny him... aaargh. some guys just really don't get it, no matter how many times u've said 'no' to them... and it amazes me. how can he be soo obsessed with me anywayz while we've never even met? i didn't show him my pix either, so really, he doesn't know anything about me! yet somehow he just kept saying he's sure i'm a nice girl and blah blah, while all along i was sooo cold to him.
so how the freaking hell would he just think i must be a nice girl anywayz from the way i acted?!?? cuz i mean, if it's someone who i know in real life who acts that way, then i can probably still understand it. but if it's just someone who u dunno at all, how the hell can u be obsessed with them?!?!? the other thing, they would just keep asking for pix soon after chatting. but for me, i thought the whole point in making friends from the net is that u get to know the person inside. if u care about the looks so much, why don't u just go meet someone in real life where u get to see rite then and there how the others look?!
aaargh.
dunno. it's all soo confusing. sometimes i kinda regret i got myself into this whole mess. my life would've just been a lot simpler if i had ignored all of them. just follow the policy i've been following for yrs, only add ppl u know in real life! but then sometimes i'd think since my life is already soo simple these days that i hardly ever get to meet new ppl, it'd be interesting to meet ppl this way too.
so i dunno. i'm really just contradicting myself. but well one thing's for sure. i've made up my mind now that sometime this week i'm just gonna delete the icq and the new msn account. am just gonna go back to be like before, keep the one true msn account and keep everything simple. voila! urlLink the new MSN account i signed up 2 months ago for net friends... it really just has 5 ppl on it. but aaah stupid me (>___<);;; i've lost interest in making net friends yet again, after merely 1 month... 
