  I find that when I do a title first ...I can never stay on subject. So for that ... I'll title later. Okay ... well ... It worries me that the older I get ... the less interesting, I become. When I was like 12, I could fill a page talking about my useless day.
Now ... I start to put something down ... but nothing happens. I was more fun too. I used to go out all the time, and I'd constantly be on the phone. Which leads my to wonder ... will I be totally anti-social by the time I hit 16? People who knew just two years ago have asked me why I'm so bitter now. My best friend told me yesterday that I'm not the person she knew back when we met. What I realized was that ... she's right. I was happier, and more pleasant, and more hyper, and I liked myself a heck of alot more. I don't know what happened between then and now. I'm not trying to say I'm not a good person now, I just used to be a better person. It's like one day I woke up and everything around me just sucked. All the while my communication skills are dwindling ... because I totally am finding it harder to put into words what I'm feeling. I'm completely uptight, and moody, and really stressed out, I'm always tired, and I have to force myself to smile.
I'm extremely unstable, I tend to at any moment, burst into song, or start dancing. I'll start laughing uncontrollable, and roll around on the floor. I'm self diagnosing myself with manic depression. But my firends tell me it's part of my appeal ... I'm cute and psycho ... so it all evens out. LOL 
