  am having suCh jOy.  remnant of what I'd went thRu' dUring prayer meeting few hOurs ago.  thank God that I was able to make it. oNi told my mUm @ 1745.  saNg for sErvice One.
 PrAise the Lord for divine hEaling.  my calf muscles weRe kindA over- stretched ( I gUessed it was dUe to me ovEr- hYper on tueS.  (
was actually haVing tRouBle climbing dOwn staiRs. for a cOuple of days.  )  if not.  can't be a " jUmping jack"
 last nite.  OvernIte prAyer meeting was aweSome.  nevEr sTayed thRoughOut the fUll session.  until last nite.  and bReakThru was that theRe are more than the usUal faCes i see.  Six HouRs.
 :  fiNally rEceive cOnfiRmaTion to over ceRtain arEas of my life thAt's like so mind blOggering and rather difficult to tRust in Him.  And the other vOice in my head trying to sOw thOughts of dOubt &  deFeat in me.  sAw thaT i was oNe of the sand pArticle that He picked up.  (
ya.  that's hOw small i thouGht i was.  small and insignificant.  inSecUre.  despite of how i depict myself to be.  I was who God has creAted.
 maNy a times.  I dOubted whether cerTain things are frOm Him. I was faithless BUt He saw what was in me.  saw that I was in this hOle of daRkness where I was leading mysELf into.  A hand that strEtches in and pull me Out.  acTually was On the vErge losing my vOice whiLe praying in pairs.
 sOrry long.  I know I sound like a frOg.  my thRoat was simply toooo dry.  ( from the kopis that I'd)  and thROat was constricting.
 and Jaws wEre aching.  yah.  i was shOuting.  badbad for my vocal cords.  bUt i regained my vOice back after the breaK.  LASt paRt of the Prayer meeting was .
 wOrds can't expREss whAt i felt.  we're just taking time to meet Father God and to wOrship Him. saw myself singing to Father God up in the heavenlies. Just to Him alone. He never left me.  I was drying Up cUz I was shUtting Him Out.
His presence in the Auditorium was soooo thick.  we cOuld just continue to wOrship on &  on.  Members who were in church before 2000 was laid hands on.  Many received the Holy Laughter.  Pastor Ming came over to lay hands on us.
 DEspite that pastor was at the other end,  the moment that Pastor lay hands on Max.  I saw light.  then.  i was DOwn.  (
later I realised i caused a domino effect.  cuz i pulled emmy down.  poor Chris was trying hard to sUpport us.  i just feel that the oppression was lifted.  Liberated.  was still lingering in His presence when i was off the mrt.
 so i took a detOur in the Pasir Ris Park.  actually dOzed off when i got hOme and stArted to finish mo niu de taio jian.  ( finally i did)  Gwen called me @ 11 cuz she wanna loan formal dress from me.
 ( but i do not have la except my prom dress hahaha.  i think tooo long for her oso.  Suddenly just knew that I need to seek Him.  started singing and just went on &  on.
 and saw this:  the back view of a man &  a little girl.  Yup.  that's me &  my Father.
He was holding my hand.  walking with me.  I was this little girl with two pony tails.  He is always there in all my situations. He never let me go of His sight.  yes.
 i was already His before i heArd His name.  ( realised that i was actually rather envious of my friends duRing my primary School days that they attend sUnday school.  now I know why.  I was not a mistake.  i'd was handpicked.
 never will i wanna lose touch again.  Lord I TruSt in You. Visions you given me.  yes. they have not come to pass yet. but it will.
 it's not my timing.  it Yours!  And yes.  I know what He wants me to do next year.  it's getting clearer &  clearer.
 Obedience is better than sacrifice!  verse of the day:  " Now may He who supplies seed to the sower,  and bread for food,  supply and mulitply the seed you have sown and increase the fruits of your righteousness,
 while you are enriched in everyting for all liberality which causes thanksgiving through us to God"  ~ 2 Cor 9: 10- 11.  P.
s.  another friend decided to blog.  :
