  while i was browsing my friendster...like a day to day basis... i saw a message from someone really familiar. yes. i got a msg from him. it was the usual masg. funny thing isa that ..i hear his voice while i wa reaing the short msg of him. still emotionless.still hollow. i replied to the message. I was honest as i always was with him.
i told him i was mad.i am. i am hurting. too much pain has endured because he never told me answers to my simple questions. i dont know why he did that. why he just ran away. he always does. he ran away from his family before... he ran away from school.. he ran away from me..and ran back to australia.
talk is cheap..you said that you will never go back there. you would stand on your own.. yuo love me..you want to get a good family.a good life...prove something.. but why do you always ran away? it hurts me that you are like that. that you never keep your words...not to them..not even to me. what is pride? regaining pride back is the only reason he gave me. but is what you did the solution to get the pride back?
you just proved yourself that you cant stand on your decision before. i dont know the answers really.. everybody who loved you..every body who beleived and supported you... you just turned them down. without saying a word. without being a man. its not about money. its not how good your job is.. its about your word. what you said before..about showing and proving your family that you can make it on your own is gone.
only you know the answer. so if pride is what ur trying to gain back.. you were 1 step close on getting it and proving it by standing on your word and fighting for the person or your future "family", but all yuodid is throw it all away and lose all the people who gave you support and loved you like a family. mga lola, mga tita, kaibigan, lahat lahat na naniwala sayo, binigo mo lahat para lng sa sarili mo. parang sinabi mop na rin na " hindi ko pala kaya... sige, kayo na bahala..." hindi habang panahon...tatakasn natin mga responsibilities natin... mga decisions... masakit magmahal ng taong hindi mo alam kung totoo. kung andun lng sya dahil wala sya kasama. mahal pa rin kita. yoko ng ganto. ayoko ng mahal pa rin kita kahit sobrang sakit. kahit hindi ko alm kung totoo lahat. dahil hindi mo masabi..hindi mo masagot mga tanong ko ngayon...kung kailan ako ang humihingi ng konting panahon mo para sumagot.Maliit na bagay lng ang hinihingi ko.... yun lng.malaman ko lng. 
