  My FIRST BLOG.  hahaha very excited.  after i have read kenny's blog,  i realise that this is really a very good place to place my thoughts and also comunicate with my inner self.  I have always not been very vocal in gatherings even with frens.  coz i dun really have that much to talk and most of the time i felt that i listen more to others than talking to them.
 and so my thoughts r much more faster than wat i really had to interpret in speech.  call it a speech barrier or some other illness.  but i think i reflect more in this way and this had helped me to look at things in a more open manner and see the bigger picture in things that i felt not everyone can do.  rash decisions r not my cup of tea as i do really put it into lots of thoughts before doing something or saying something important. Alrite enuff of all these crap.  now for my first really event to record here is my end of attachment after 6 long mths in my company.
 Well as those who really know me,  i m currently studying in the uni and doing my attachment now or over liao.  today was the last day and it is suppose to be a very good and happy day.  but then something dreadful had to happen in the last moment.  it was abt the last 2 hrs before we r suppose to knock off and i got a call from my colleague telling me to go to the board room 2 to see boss.  my deparment manager-
 sup.  i was surprised by that call.  i thought the company had prepared something for me in recognising my efforts to the company.  FYI my suo is very impressed with my work performance in the company and he thinks very highly on me.  i was a bit happy as the com is recognising my efforts instead of my prof who promised me something but in the end nothing materialise.  so i make my way to the room and there was this lady call her mdm A and the other malay guy juhari.
 with my boss siting there.  then this mdm A started to introduce herself and then began to explain the situation.  in the end i was there not for wat i thought i would be getting and for a matter that had happened somewhere along this week.  u see,  my com practises this punch card system and we had to punch in and out whenever we come and leave the office.  and unfortunately i was late for monday and so i called up my fren to help me punch my card and he did.
 this happens quite a few times as we often look after each other's back and help each other whenever anyone of us is going to be late.  and so unfortunately it was discovered on the last day and they had to call me and my fren in for questioning.  both of us hav to confess as the truth r there on the cards itself.  anyway when i was late on mon.  my boss saw me rushing to the office with my bag. oops so obvious.
 he knew abt it but then we knew he would not go to the extent of tallying our cards with our attendance.  this is supposed to be done be mdm A.  so all the warnings and treatening came in and wat was funny was the malay guy actually faked himself in front of me that he was also from NTU and he was treatening me that i could fail the course in this way ,  which i feel is very ricdiculous.  mdm A was very strict also repremanding me telling me wats wrong and wats right and trying to act friendly and wanting to understand y i did it.  all i know was my boss is very disappointed in me which i felt guilty to him.
 the wordings by mdm A and juhari were juz all crap to me as i dun think they really analyse the situation properly.  condeming a person as he faults the first time in the comapny with a good working performance.  they were saying that they would make a official complaint to the school and ask me to be prepared to face the school dean for questioning.  she was asking abt my integrity and my religion .  asking me whether i m a christian.  which i think she is.
 when i said no.  she gave those bemused look and thought that i dun hav one which i replied buddhism.  huh some arrogant christian here who thinks taht she is so much more superior to others.  she had this really condem u look on her face which i dreads when i hav to face her and talk to her.  she was telling me abt her working experience and also the ppl that she met.  and so she thinks this is a very serious matter and for me being late for 30 min and ask my fren to punch card for me.
 she says this is cheating the com.  come on.  this is only the 2nd time in 6 mths that i was actually late.  and u know wat she does not even knows me and there she is judging me with the things i have done as if i purposely wanted to.  u know i really wanted to tell her off there asking her "  ya u may hav met a lot of ppl and hav u ever met a drug sniffer.
 hav u spoken heart to heart to a gangster.  not ur factory worker here.  i m talking abt those youngster out there who r really drug addicts.  do u juz condem them and think they r wasted juz with one foolish act of drug sniffing.  .  Yes they might be wrong in their doings but do u hav to condem those ppl.
 tell me r u a saint and who never do anything wrong.  hav u ever cheated in ur class or lie to ur parents?  .  come to the talk of this really pissed me off.  this frking bitch here trying to tell me off when wat she had seen is nothing compared to the army.  even my CO can talk to me properly before doing the punishment.
 she actually asking abt my integrity here.  hahaha which i think do u hav one too.  who does not hav integrity.  dun u ever cheat in anyway.  i dun believe it.  sign.
 no matter wat she is juz trying to condem me and also complain to the school requesting the schooll to do some disciplinary action on me.  fail me .  haha thats wat she expects.  frk that bitch.  and the juhari trying to threaten me abt me failing the course and saying that he is ashamed of him being a fellow NTU grad himself when he is none.  he actually say that he cannot believe wat this coming batch of NTU students will be when they grad.
 citing us as the batch wwho represent the rest.  say it for himself. NUS FRKer.  i hav seen lots of more fake NUS ppl there trying to act here and there doing a lot of underhand stuff trying to be friendly to ppl when they had been scheming at the back.  so does that reflects on all the NUS grds coming out.  wat a childish remark from a 30 plus yr old man here.
 trying to act fierce and wanting to condemn me also with mdm A.  i say frk that guy man.  u anit seen enuff.  juz a typical simngaporean who juz work here and trying to do ur job to impress someone hoping to climb up in ithers expense.  actually how they managed to find out abt our small tricks here is because of my other fren weihan.  this is really a stupid and spoil brat which i get to know here.
 he is a frker who never know his limits.  he got chicken box and got mc for 2 wks.  then from then onwards.  he is like having mc now and then and sometimes not even handling up his mc to the sup. so while he is on mc.  he used to ask us to punch his card for him.
 this has gone on for a few mths liao and he thinks he is untouchables and keep doing this.  my boss already aim him for a long time and he still dun wake up his idea.  i used to help him once but the as i see that he keeps doing this i told my fren that i m not going to do it for him liao as this is going to be out of hand and sooner or later this will be found out and indeed it happen.  for this wk he was mc for 2 days.  which means he work for 3 days.  and u know wat.
 i saw his mc and he is supposed to hav a day mc by the doc and he manipulated the mc on the spot when my boss ask it from him personally.  on mon when he is on mc.  my boss already knew abt it.  then on tues he do his stunt again.  thats when my boss ask my fren to give him his hp no.  and i think he cannot get him.
 coz the next day when he came back.  my boss was asking him y he keeps getting sick.  the thing is he never hands in his mc until my boss ask for it today.  and thats how i saw he manipulate the mc.  then i think my boss went to pass it to the admin and thats how they found out abt the discrepancies.  and mine too when he check it.
 coz the timing is too nice liao.  all came in at the same time.  my fren and i Kanna big time here all becoz of one stupid guy and he is an officer mind u.  i was ashamed.  he tried to be apologetic after his questioning by the ppl there in the board rm.  by then he had already made me very disgust but i m still diplomatic to him dicussing abt the stuff with him.
all i can say from the 6 mths with him i can see he is a spoil brat in one way and also fillial in another.  he has this ability trying to use ppl to achieve his goal when he does not even want to do it himself.  he tried that on me but i showed him my direct disgust and my other fren was again a too nice person saying that y should i be so calculating with him.  being too nice is a matter but then to those ppl like theis WH.  i dun think i should be nice to him.  in conclusion.
 this IA was supposed to end in a happy note but then this event made me even more disgust abt it.  i may hav to redo my IA which i dun think is a big matter to me.  i hav err and i should be brave enuff to face the consequences.  if this happens to me a few yrs ago.  i may be scared or even intimated by the juhari.  but then now i think he is not going to scare me a bit.
 i m not a small kid here.  so i guess this is enuff for my first entry.  very long but unfortunately this had to be my starting.  lots more coming up.  when i get the time.  i will penned dwn or i should say type dwn all the thought i hav in my last 6 mths including the most controversial breakup with my 3 yr ex.
 which i felt i need to record it dwn somewhere.  look out for it here.  0004 now logging out.  Regards GriffonDour 
