  CONSUMED BY YOU Consumed by waves of all the cruel words said by you My seldom calm seas turning violent nothing I can do Struggling to stay afloat and not drown in deep despair Waking up late at night remembering you’
re not there…  The harder I swim to the safety trying to reach your loving shore The bigger the sea gets,  the more I don’ t want to live anymore Knowing I will be forever lost at sea,  that I will never be the same I am filled with drowning,
 emotional heartache,  unbearable pain I feel the air leave my lungs as I struggle in vain to live on I guess I knew that we would end up a shipwreck all along Separated by distance,  caused by the ebb of a random tide Trying,  struggling,  failing to keep hope without losing our pride Empty inside realizing I was now living inside my biggest fear Emotions spinning out of control floating endlessly,  I wish you here Trying not to feel anything inside,  wanting to,  but unable to cry Nightmares of losing you coming true wishing quietly that I would die…
 Wishing I could close my eyes one time and not think of you Trying and failing to figure out how to go on and what to do I am unable to catch my breath as waves make me think and wonder Surrendering hopelessly to your voice before finally forever going under…  GIA 6/ 04 
