  Ok, so Roxannie found out that I'm still in love with Parrott. She wasn't all that surprised. She thought that deep down he still loved me and that our relationship was different and that we could make it work. But, that my friends, is what my dreams are made of. There's no way ever that it would work. Stupid hope. It never dies. Wanna read his profile? I'm so happy I've got Kaitlin back in my life again :-D I've got you back And you're in my arms again I'm never going to let you go I just want to close the door And be with you for all eternity Cause you're back in my life Ain't it beautiful folks?
It's fine. I mean, he's doing me a favor, because it would never work. Roxannie thought the only thing holding him back was that he was so scared of getting hurt. I let her sit in for one of my conversations with him and she changed her mind alittle. I guess she was just mis-informed. She saw what was going on from my perspective and now she sees it's impossibility, also. Maybe if I just block him again, I'll be okay.
But I'm so scared that that will only be hurting the healing process and I'll be messed up later down the road. I wish I could just hate him forever, but he doesn't give me enough reason. He doesn't give me any reason to love him, but I'm pretty good at that. Ahh! Make it stop! Someday! 
