  What a good day. I had an appointment with my trainer at the gym. I begged her not to work my legs today since I could barely walk yesterday - we did upper body instead - I really felt good afterwards. Then the kids and I went to the waterpark and met some friends there. What a blessing that was since my friend's kids are a little older they took care of Meghan most of the day so I could just relax.
Connor actually ran into some friends from school so he was content. We came home, made dinner and watched a movie and the biggest surprise of all was that NO ONE argued at bed time!!! So why am I crying? I talked to Troy tonite. He leaves the country soon but it seems the closer the time gets, the more he's pulling away.
The less he calls/writes and the more agitated he seems when I call/write him. Maybe it's just his own defense system kicking in... maybe it's something more... maybe I just have to stop over analyzing every little thing... maybe I DON'T know all the answers (gasp!! ) I do know that even though the daytime was good, once the kids are in bed and the house is quiet, I realize how alone I am and how much I miss him..... has it been a year yet? 
