  So much happen since the last day I updated my blog. My mood is not that good loh cos I had been crying to sleep for the past few days. I sort of get reminded of some unhappy incidents and my tears just start flowing. Was planning to meet deardear today but then both of us had a busy schedule and I try to book him on friday liao.
Really really hope to see him soon loh. I miss him so much. Arh..... I start to regret a bit on updating my blog of my personal feelings but then it's my life and I have nothing to hide but I dun expect pple to pay special attention to my blog and make use of it. Sigh...... GA, u r very clever indeed. From my posting, u can tell that deardear dun chat with me over the phone at all and he dun have the tendency to reply to my sms and u make gd use of it. Thanks for the sms u send me everyday, it's very sweet of u but then I think someone out there deserve it more than me.
Such sweet sms are just not meant for me. Dun use words like " Muackz" in ur sms to me anymore if u still value the friendship we have. I dun mind chatting with u on the phone when u r down cos I still treat u as a friend in need but calling me everyday and telling me u miss me is not rite loh.
To make things simple, I know that u can be a very gd bf from the day I know u but then there's a very simple reason why I choose deardear over u. Deardear is the ONLY one in my heart and that feeling is going to last. I admit that I feel horrible when deardear dun reply to my sms, but that's him and I dun want him to change for me. I love him and I have learn not to expect any reply from him. It's a hard process for me cos I am not used to it. There are times that I would be checking my hp every 5 minutes hoping that it's him replying. There are times that I would jump in joy hearing the message alert tone and being disappointed once I realised that it's not him.
Such are the times I have to go through and it's not a nice feeling. I am still trying to change my expectation of him and it's slowly improving. I can't stop myself from smsing him cos I miss him everyday and we dun get to chat at all until the time we meet. I do envy those couples that could at least have a chat a day or at least a gd nite sms from each other every nite cos that's so sweet, but then I still think that deardear is the best although we have neither of the both mentioned above.
GA, I believe that u can sense my deep love for deardear is not going to change no matter what u do, so I suggest u spend more time with others. U would also find a true love soon and u would be treasuring it like I do now. Quote : Communication could be a must in some relationships, but then words would be useless if we express our love through our hearts. It's a form of understanding, trust and committment. 
