  I sent the flowers on Friday, and as of today I have yet to receive a thank-you e-mail from MJ.&nbsp; I called the hotel and they assured me that the flowers were placed in her room, but thus far I haven't heard a thing from her about them.&nbsp; And I don't want to call to ask if she received them because, frankly, I'm concerned that that would sound pathetic.
&nbsp; Whatever is up, the waiting is driving me nuts. &nbsp; I told my father about it.&nbsp; He thinks she's still trying to process the data and figure out an appropriate response.&nbsp; He believes that hearing nothing is significant.&nbsp; In his mind, the response very likely was positive and now she's trying to figure out how to backtrack from a stated intractable position. &nbsp; Yeah, or (here I go, ever the pessimist) she's trying to figure out a way to get me to stop doing these things without sounding like a complete, ungrateful&nbsp;bitch. &nbsp; I don't know what's up.&nbsp; I really don't.&nbsp; I keep thinking that she might have gone with somebody, though I believe that to be completely ridiculous.&nbsp; If she had, she would not have taken the boys with her.&nbsp; But when I spoke with D on the phone Sunday night (and no, I did not ask whether or not MJ liked the flowers), and he wasn't exactly forthcoming with the details of his trip.
&nbsp; The truth is, I'm tired.&nbsp; I've been trying to win her back for&nbsp;almost a month now, and I've received no sign from her that a dialogue can even be opened.&nbsp; I'm beginning to think that the whole situation is hopeless, and that I probably should let it go.&nbsp; It would be easier than having my heart broken every day for a month, or once a month for the past eleven.&nbsp; My I Ching reading didn't help matters.&nbsp; To the question, "Does MJ want to stay married to me?
" I received this response: &nbsp; The present is embodied in Hexagram 44 - Kou (Coming to Meet): We see a female who is bold and strong. It will not be good to marry such a female. &nbsp; Pretty devastating, I think.&nbsp; And I am seriously considering just hanging things up for good. 
