  yesterday n today have been pretty...b0ring((as usual)). but i*ve been d0in l0tta thnkn b0ut s0m1...n it sux s0o0o much!! i went 0ut w. dis guy 4 a while, n like he treated me s0 g00d n n0w i l00k bac at it, n i feel like i was jus a t0tal bitch t0 him s0mtimes. pe0ple wuld tell me aLL dis stuff b0ut him wen we were g0in 0ut n shit...n stupid me, i believed it n st0pped likin him. wut made it even w0rse was dat i didnt even break up w. him wen i l0st feelings. s0 den i finally br0ke w. him, l0tta things happened n we wernt talkin...yeh but t0 make a RELLY l0ng st0ry sh0rt, we r...relly g00d friends n0w, n im relly glad...except im startin t0 miss him. like we&nbsp;ALWYZ talk n weneva we hang 0ut we have s0o0o much fun 2gether. n he makes it seem s0...i dunn0 h0w t0 say it but its like...jus weird.
n s0o0o many pe0ple r like yeh y0u 2 are g0n bac 2getha n blah blah blah. but i dunn0. it jus kinda feels like he messes w. mah head s0mtimes n he confuses me s0 much. i kinda regret g0in 0ut w. him...like i feel like we were kinda rushed int0 gettin 2gether but yeh. like if we had waited n g0n 0ut maybe a little later, mayb we still w0ulda been 2gether. but i dunno,&nbsp;i gues its jus made me realize dat wen it c0ms 2 guys...there is no 2nd chance...n it sux so much.
&nbsp; but newayz...besides all dat...kinda g00d news i gues lol. me n mah nickie mite b able t0 g0 t0 disneyland w. da pe0ple fr0m 0akland we kn0w fr0m dance...if we g0 it sh0uld b HELLLA fun!! no parents, LOTTA fine guys...n den 0ur friends...wut culd b better?? n wed b derr 4 like...5 days...s0unds fun t0 me! n den wen we c0m bac, after like...3 days, we*re g0in d0wn s0uth again...but 0ur parents*LL b derr((grrrr...)).
but im pretty sure we*LL jus walk r0und w.0ut dem lol. but wen we d0 g0, we*re g0nna g0 t0 L0ng beach...omg i LOOOVE it derr!! derrs southcoast plaze sh0pping center...dat place is s0o0o damn big!! yup...n den we*re g0nna g0 t0 Universal Studi0s...dat*LL b fun 2. n den we*re g0nna g0 t0 San Diego n jus chiLL r0und da beach...yay!! we*re g0n g0 b0dy b0ardin n shit...s0o0o much fun, but y0u get s0 many bruises...o well. yup so it shuld b fun. &nbsp; xOx.*.LaUrEn. *.xOx 
