  Have you ever taken a step back and looked at your life and realized that things you worked and planned for just didn’ t turn out like you thought they would? nbsp;  It’ s a funny thing this life is. nbsp;
 I’ ve known this for a while,  but I really only just learned this recently.
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 I recently sat down and looked at the developments in my life these last few years and I see my life in a completely different place than I imagined it would be just a few years ago.
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 Even plans I had even 3 months ago have been altered or just plan shit on.
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 For instance,
 a long time ago,  I thought I would be a chemical engineer and now I’ m getting a job as a Financial Planner.
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 Another example is what happened with my girlfriend of 3 years suddenly calling it quits and walking away from me;  right when I was ready to commit myself to her 100%
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 Talk about a 180 degree swing.  &
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 Some might argue that there is only one lesson to be learned from situations like these.
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 That lesson,  they argue,  is that we should not allow ourselves to become to attached to any given person or dream without complete confidence and assurance that they will prevail or succeed.
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 In other words,  should we allow ourselves to put all our eggs in one basket and risk being left with nothing when our plans,
 dreams,  and passions turn to crap?
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 Others feel differently.  They would argue that if we believe in something so adamantly or want something badly enough,  shouldn't we be willing to risk everything we hold sacred( Our self- respect,  loved ones,  sanity,  careers,  or anything else of worth)  just to see that our plans and dreams come together as we initially planned?
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 These are difficult questions to answer.
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 Not because I do not want to broach the subject,
 but because each situation and each person would answer that in their own way.
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 In my particular situation,  the steps I have taken in response to the wrinkle that has occurred in my life recently have been quite discouraging.
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 What has happened to me in terms of my love life has taken a turn for the worse unexpectedly and I was left at a loss as I tried to remedy the situation.
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 But there is one thing I have learned;  when it comes to love,  to make it work,
 you have to put yourself,  your heart,  and emotions into the hands of another.
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 I agree with the later suggestion that you should be willing to risk it all for the sake of your happiness.  You must leave yourself completely vulnerable to disappointment and heartbreak.
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 This was a tough decision that I made a few months ago as I surrendered to dedicating myself to her completely.
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 I was blind to the fact that,  in just a few short months,  it would all blow up in my face.
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 Furthermore,  I was ignorant to how I would respond to such rejection.
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 With reckless abandon,  I managed to turn a bad situation even worse.
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 I fear I lost the one thing I wanted to hold onto.
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 I decided I would lay it all out there and risk it all on the gamble of winning her heart again.  I knew what I was risking,  but I thought it all worth it.  I laid it all on the line and did whatever I could to hold this relationship together.  I showed determination,  faithfullness,  patience,
 love,
 kindness,  and generosity mixed in with a little bit of emotional trama.  But the moves I made were contrary to what she wanted and it only made her upset with me to the point where she hates me now.
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 The shitty part is,  I can’ t even explain that to her because she won’ t care.
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 She has turned her heart into stone.
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 We have reached the point- of- no- return and pissed all over it.  She would rather rub it in that she is talking to,  flirting with,  and dating other guys.
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 Ah,  love…
 It’
s a motherfucker.
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 It does things to a man you would never expect.
