  i am wishing that i could open up my head and let thoughts roll down to my fingertips and onto the screen.  there is quite a bit going on in my brain and heart and it's hard to know what to write about -  what inspiration to follow.  1)  i got to play pool tonight -  i really like to play pool.  and i love going to the pool hall where we go.  ( broadway billiards in downtown vancouver,
 wa!  well,  we go just about every weekend.  but it's just a good break from " real life"  i think a lot when i play -  about lots of random stuff.  but i don't talk a lot.
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when we play,  that is -  anyone who knows me knows that is not true most of the time.  2)  i'm starting preparations for camp -  i went today and bought some stuff for the other staffers -  this makes me happy.  i love being able to encourage others and i hope that i'm able to do that with the other people i'll be working with -
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i guess i haven't really said a lot about camp -  more promises for more details but not today)  3)  tonight for no reason at all,  i started laughing ( there was nothing to laugh at)  and snorted 4 times in one laugh -  and no one else was laughing.  i think that makes it worse.  more times today than i want to admit,  i've felt really moronic.  i'm sure it will pass eventually.
 this is the point where i have SO MUCH running through my head but i can't materialize anymore.  a lot of it deals with my current state of singleness.  but i don't like to go there on such a public arena.  but maybe a different day.  here's a quote from the movie i want to watch tonight but don't think i'll be able to.  and i want to watch it SO BAD!  500 points.
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You're not a guy.  The world is full of guys.  Be a man.  Don't just be a guy.  oh -  and current point status is as follows.  500 points to amy,  600 points available.  sorry for the randomness of this entry.  i wish i could write something meaningful rather than a lot of junk.
