  i feel like crap, i try so hard to make things right and it never ever goes my way. and recently some stuff has made me even sadder cuz i can't do anything about it. SHIT why can't i make at least one person happy, and one person who would just once at least once ever care about me, i want love, i don't know what it's like to have someone love me.... i've never had it and it hurts, fuck it hurts bad.
My heart has been played with, torn out, put back in, and been broken more times than i can count. i feel like i'm living some horrible nightmare, i'm tired of crying every night. my faith is still with me at least and maybe someday god will give me a sign, that maybe there's something that i can do right. -Loves- 
