  Sometimes i wonder if this stinking life is really worth it...i wouldnt say ive some terrible tradegy in life. In fact no fucking tradegy has ever happen to me. If i consider being unable to attend the university that i wanted a few years back ...and the fact that ive finally proven i am indeed capable of strong likeable feelings to person which most people will term as "love".
So that makes two tradegies in my life. The former i was able to overcome the disappoinment and was able to prove to everybody i can be the best even if i dont belong in the "elite" group of fucking immatured narrowminded teenagers. The latter, i will definitely say its the worst feeling ive ever had. Yeah it does feel good when everythings ok but once the situation goes stale and unexplainable things keep intruding the mind then thats when the creeping sinking feeling comes in. 
