  Just a word of warning: Whatever you do, DONT listen to Evanescence when you're feeling blue. It does jack shit to make you feel better. Its beautiful music, yes, but it brings you down like a sack of shit. However, on the CD which has my Evanescence songs on it, it also has VAST.
VAST are an awsome pick me up band. Proof that life is a double edged sword. But most of the time it just shits me. I just hope that a therapist doesnt read this and try to talk me out of suicide. Because no. 1: If I were suicidal, no-one could talk me out of it. and no. 2: Suicide is the easy way out. I like to take the long road and walk it. (shameless quoting of the music) But there are times at which I feel that I want to end it all.
And then I remember that I eventually want to live, and that it isn't as futile as it seems. Those days are some of the best. Even though I seem whiny and bitchy at time, I have to look on the bright side of life. If I didn't, I surely would have topped myself a long time ago. wooo optimism!=) 
