  I'm really not very good at this. I'm working for an IT company and keep thinking to myself, the engineers are so slow, I should just get on and learn to write programmes myself, but whoops, can't even manage to make a decent blog yet! Well at least I'm trying. I mean not all girls are scientists, I think I'm actually doing quite well, could even consider myself quite proud.
My mum would agree with me at least! So it's winter again in Paris, I have jeans and a long tshirt on and I wish I had a jumper too. Don't know what happened to the heat wave but I'm certainly not surfing on it. I suppose the good thing is, is that neither am I getting skin cancer from it! This month is one of those tiring months, I feel really insipred on the inside, but really worn down on the outside. I have a thousand ideas of things to do and make but when I get home, I just fall asleep watching crappy tv.
When I think about things I'm really glad that life is ok. I might be broke all the time, but that's only cos I spend all my money! At least I have the money to spend in the first place. My apartment is nice and cosy, even if it's not mine. And I still have all my bestest friends all around the world, even if they aren't here with me now, I know there somewhere doing some of the things they always hoped they would. So if I wasn't a fashion designer I'd be a DJ. And if I wasn't a DJ I'd be a photographer. And if I wasn't a photographer then maybe I'd be a scientist or programmer or a dancer or or a singer or maybe I'd just be housewife married to a rich man, then I could do anything and evreything I wanted, cos then I'd have all the time in the world. I would even do the house work cos my servants would do it. But would I be as happy as I am know. I doubt it. I'd probably be bored shitless! At least now when I fall asleep on the sofa it makes a change.
I have loads of things to do, and I couldn't be bored if I tried, but I still gettired, and that's whats annoying me right now. I'm tired of being tired! So when you find the cure, just let me know, cos they don't sell red bull so basically I'm stuffed................ 
