  I've been in a strange mood all weekend... Various things coming to a head. Idle week has *not* been idle!
I wince at the workload I will undertake in subsequent weeks, but thats work, its tangible and can be handled with appropriate method and practice. I can handle that... Its people I never know how to handle. Those who say one thing and do another, those who are like still waters that run deep, those that misunderstand me, those I misunderstand, those with problems I have to overcome to work with, those who are untouchable, those who malign me, those who unknowingly hurt me, those who I unknowingly hurt... People are never textbook cases of black or white, or predictable or readable in any sense.
One can never really 'know' another, but only predict his/her actions more accurately over proximity of contact. Sometimes a time out is the best thing. But sometimes friendships that take a time out for too long dissolve into nothingness, eroded away by time.
I am in a strange place, not in love, not in pain, not angered or upset. I simply can't put my finger on it and I don't think I even want to try... definitions have gotten me no where. Impatience is my Achille's heel. I trust too quickly, I tell too much. I submit all too willingly. I think my friends know more about me that I them. That's not always a good thing, since I'm not the best judge of people at all. 
