  I don't even know why I bothered to buy the stupid hpt. I took it this morning because my temp was still relatively high, but guess what that hpt read?
BFN!!! Just like I knew it would. I give up! I have no idea why we can't get pregnant. This just totally sucks. I have to call my doctor tomorrow to let them know that the 3rd IUI didn't work and to find out what my options are.
I just don't get it! Why can some people get pregnant without even trying and others can't get pregnant and they are practically knocking themselves out in the process? I'm sad, frustrated, angry, confused.....I just really want a baby! Why can't I have one? Did I do something wrong? Does God hate me and is punishing me? Are my Dh and I awful people who don't deserve a baby of our own? I just want to scream!!!! My Dh doesn't know, yet, that I tested. I know that he will think it's all his fault that it didn't happen, again.
It's nobodies fault. I know that. I just have to convince myself that. It's so hard to get through each day and not know why. I hope this gets easier, but I have a feeling that I'm in for a looooong journey. I have more thoughts running through my head, but I just can't seem to get exactly how I'm feeling down onto this screen. 
