  Quiet &nbsp; Osho. I like Osho a lot. Pure, True and Holy . This morning I asked Him what to do with this pure and strong hate and anger I feel inside.
It's like I had a perhaps little messy but at least clean house and now all of a sudden I see dirt and rubbish everywhere.. &nbsp; Listen. The answer is never clear. The purpose is to hear it and then find out its meaning for me. This is already listening to myself&nbsp;- it makes me able to find my way by myself. With all this noise in my head, I will never be able to listen inside.. &nbsp; Shut up. For a while it is better not to open my mouth.
Let go. I need to relax and feel numb. I have to feel how is it to take everything that&nbsp;enters my receptors (let it be good or bad), and instead of sending a lightspeed fast message to my brain, just ignore the perception.. &nbsp; Meditation. Actually this is exactly like when I sit down, let all my muscles relax, close my eyes and get into my Inner World. This is full-time, awake meditation. This means that instead of me entering my Inner World, I extend my Inner World to my whole being.. &nbsp; I am fighting to achieve this Awake Meditation. 
