  A question we all have asked ourselves after the break up. Why did we give it our all? Why didn't we see this coming? Why didn't I try harder? Love harder? Or just do more for her? Well I have a question right back to all of us. Why the hell do we care. After giving so much, monetary and emotionally. We where taken for granted.
Used and tossed away. Like yesterdays news. They have the clean break while we are left holding our poor jaded hearts in our hands. Sulking like little babies and feeling like eternal darkness has clouded our eyes. It's all the fear of the unknown. Ultimately, I feel it's the fear of never meeting that special someone. The one that gives you those butterflys in the pit of your stomach when ever you think of her. The uncontrollable smile when you think of them. They way you plan a vacation just to make them happy, take them anywhere just too see them smile! You know that contagiuos, light the whole world, make your heart skip a beat smile. Attraction like that is far and few between.
Main people take it for granted. But, butterfly don't last forever and seem to die as we get older. We need to charish these times and try to make the relationships work. I have learnt this the hard way. Even trying to save a drowning relationship. Putting myself into debt to buy clothes, hair cuts, trips, etc. Making the burn of the break-up scar me eternally and emotionally. Developing a intense trust issue.
This maybe be more my fault...or not. I'm gonna be the bigger human and say it was me. We all have our faults. But, the naive, look to the sky and believe in fate ideology tells us all that there is that specail someone out there for everyone. The hardest part is finding her. Fate has dealt us all with bad hands...IT'S UP TO US TO PLAY THE RIGHT CARDS. sucks don't it! 
