  FIRST OF ALL.  Before I start my rant. Let me just get out of the way how grateful I am for everyone's help. nbsp;  From the really big stuff to the small,  little stuff,  I could not make this journey possible without the help you have provided.
 However.  It's is funny what you come to realize in times of need.
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 What I am about to say is merely an observation and is credible in no way.
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 Here lately,  getting ready for my trip and all,  I have been in situations and circumstances that are making me vulnerable.
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 I don't like to need anyone.
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 I would like to think that I can do it by myself without help.
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 I just don't want to put anyone out.
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 Anyway,  it has been really surprising to&
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me what people's reactions are.
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 To get the&
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closest people in my life to help me is like pulling teeth. I have to practically beg for their help.
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 But outside of those people. Everyone is offering their assistance in any way that they can.  The only reason I am even bringing this up is because I am astounded how many people are offering to help me.
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 From Europeans to old friends to just acquaintances. They all are making it really clear that they would love to help me in the special way that they can.
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 And a lot have already done it.
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 Why?  If nothing else than to figure out human behavior.
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 Why are these people not wanting to even acknowledge that I am going?
