  sometimes i really hate when people only think of themselves. there is more in this world to think of than yourself. and sometimes its the only thing that you can think of. i think about my future. and if it really belongs to me- i'm beginning to think that people are planning and anticipating it for their own futures. I don't even think i can leave anymore. I think i'm stuck here forever. ~~~~~ I'm supposed to pick up someone from the airport tomorrow.
I guess I'm jealous of the fact that she got to go on a cool trip. I took care of her plants and picked up her mail while she was gone. She left two messages tonight to tell me to call mel so he and i could decide who could pick her up. I have a feeling it will be me, not him. Although she has been more in contact with him on this trip than me. I don't want to hear about her trip nor do i want to tell her how shitty of a week i've had. current music-little star~stina nordenstam 
