  Truly I know that you appreciate a gift more when you dont ask for it... that's why I know God has not given me him yet. Cause he knows that I am not ready yet... I was not able to fulfill my promise I had a glimpse of my most dreadful movie... I could not resist.... It has been almost 2 weeks now... I haven't talked to him... then I would ask myself... "How come the pain wont go away? " If only I could turn back time... and just for one day I could feel him... I know that will not happen again.. and that if it will, it would only make the wound go deeper... because I know he can never be true...
I had a dream of his mom... and in that dream.. she was not able to recognize me... and she kept on telling me about how they got back together... I wept... both in my dreams and reality... Because deep in my heart I knew that it was her whom she really loved not me... "To the woman whom i've always loved," that is what he wrote... and up till now it still rings in my ear... I know it was not me... and that it has always been her... all along... 
