  haiz wad is happening?  i'm not tired but felt lousy of myself only.  cnat do much in ministry .  give BS also not good,  play for cg also not good,  encourage ppl also not good wad more am i good in?  haiz.  so i today write a mail to shilin to say i decided to step down .  dunno wad her reply will be.  haiz just feeling lousy of myself.  i told tanpeng about it haiz.  really thank God for her .
 she encouraged me with no fear keep toking til i cry but sadly to say i still decided to step down.  just move on to the others ba others still wanna be a CGL go train them dun waste time on me yup.  that y i wanna to say.
 haiz.
 sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad.  tomorrow going pubin ubin give up my NDP ticket cause of this but nvm la.  just wanna to help out lor.  ok la nothing much to say 
