  For some reason right now I feel really depressed. Is it from thinking too much? possibly. From Jealasy? It is likely. Bad Food?
Heh, doubt it. Whatever reason it is this time around I can not seem to shake it. I took a shower and that did not help me. I seemed to think more, and more. I have realized over the past 2 days or so...That I seem to be the sidekick. I am like Tetsouo to Kanada in Akira.
Knuckles to Sonic in Sonic. And so on, and so on. Right now I guess the best way to say how I am really feeling...I feel a lot like Raziel in Soul Reaver Defiance. There is some force working hard against me, that is keeping me from reaching my goal. The Harder I struggle the harder I fall back to were I started...It is one vicouse sycle. I do not know what is causing these feelings...I just know they are here.
there is also noone that I can really talk to about this either. That is probably one of the more depressing things about this... *sigh* I think I am actually jelouse a bit. But the only person I have to blame is myself...Yes, IT IS ALL MY FAULT! I let myself learn emotion. I let things happen to me. IT IS ALL MY DAMN FAULT! 
