  hey, so i guess it's been a while. sorry, people have been keeping me busy to get my mind off of certain things. and it has been working. it doesnt change what happened, and i will never forget katie, but im lucky to have those people to help me get through all that happened last week. you know who you are, thank you. you are all very special to me.
but anyhey... so in my first post i talked about how a good friend of mine got me into this, and i was thankful! this has helped me say some things and release some emotions without any regrets. he told me he wrote something for me on his and after i read it i started mine. and i was happy. but now, the more i read his, the more i hurt. does he do it intentionally?
i read it and realize, thats not him. and i used to think some things but i now realized they were all stupid thoughts that apparently werent true. i was just stupid. WHOO-HOO, way to go again danielle! i always put ideas in my head, then eventually have to realize how stupid i am, and let me tell you! i dont know he just seems like a whole different person now, i barely know him anymore.
maybe thats what he wants. i mean it doesnt really seem like he wants to talk anymore, i know hes busy and everything, especially with his new lifestyle, but oh well. i guess sometimes you just have to learn things the hard way. just when you think you know someone, and it all seems great, i dont know. ill always feel the same for him though. i dont really want to talk about this anymore.
so i guess i should change the subject. damn i am so emotional lately. ever since katie's death i jsut am too emotional. i hate being like this. im crying more and i hate it. im not supposed to cry, ya know?
i hate it. and im always tired! but i will be getting over it eventually! time for a funny story. so my friend crystal stayed the night last tuesday so we could go to the funeral together. well she was just getting over a cold (cough, sore throat, losing voice).
somehow, i got it. though it did not kick in until saturday. so there i am saturday, coughin away with a sore throat. i went to bed early hoping to be better when i woke up, plus i was up at the cottage, so i was tired anyway. i woke up feeling fine, but could not talk. it was pathetic.
that was sunday. well today (monday) i had to work all day (8am-6pm). and what do i do, oh yeah i answer phones. so i basically got made fun of all day. if i got a nickle for every time someone said "oh it sounds like you got a cold" or "oh have you caught something" or "do you have larangitis? " id be rich.
damn that got annoying! but what can ya do right? anyway, im tired and whatnot from working all day. so i think im about to turn in! i almost forgot, one good thing about today, my friend from virginia told me he is coming to visit in less than 2 weeks! i cant wait.
i have seen him in almost 6 months! i miss him so this should be great. he made my day when he told me that! well im gonna get goin! *MUAH* to all of you...PEACE! 
