  Screaming Infedelities ~ Dashboard Confessional I'm missing your bed,  I never sleep Avoiding the spots,  where we'd have to speak And this bottle of beasts is taking me home I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets You're not alone and you're not descreet You make sure I know who's taking you home I'm reading your note over again There's not a word that I comprehend Except when you signed it,  " I'll love you always and forever.
 As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs And sit alone and wonder how you're making out But as for me I wish that I was anywhere With anyone making out I'm missing your laugh,  how did it break?  And when did your eyes begin to look fake?  I hope you're as happy as you're pretending I'm missing your bed,  I never sleep Avoiding the spots,  where we'd have to speak And this bottle of beasts is taking me home Your hair,
 it's everywhere Screaming infedelities,  and taking it's wear & nbsp;  & nbsp;  so there is&
nbsp; a reason i chose this song,  but i really dont feel like talking about it. nbsp;  so since i got to work today i have had a pretty bad headache so i have felt kinda crappy since about 2: 00.
nbsp;  but i did take a nap from like 8ish- 10ish,  so i do feel a little better. nbsp;  but anyhey.
 so the whole this i worte about the other day ( yesterday or the day before?  i have no clue how that is going to turn out. nbsp;  the two guys i talked about wont look at me,  much less talk to me anymore,
 which i am fine with,  itll make it easier for me not to be friends with them anymore and keeping our conversations strictly business.  so that is good,  i guess.  so yeah,  but i want to get off that subject because i dont want to get mself worked up over it anymore!
 so there,  begone with the subject for now!  so yeah.  have you ever been bored and decided you wanted to do something productive,  but didnt know what to do?  i felt like that earlier.
nbsp;  i got home from work and was sitting on the couch playing super mario brothers 3 on an original Nintendo System ( sooo cool,  got it for $ 6 at a garage sale ( including games)
 and it works perfectly) nbsp;  anyhey.  so my little sister came down and had a notebook and markers and a stapler and some stuffing from a stuffed animal she cut apart ( still,  i do not know why she did that.
 the pain,  the horror! nbsp;  she colored the paper,  then crumbled it up to make is feel kinda soft. nbsp;
 the she put the stuffing in between two pieces and stapled it together,  she threw it at me and said " look,  i made a pillow"  what a nred she is,  but then i starting thinking,
 " i would ike to do something artistic right now"  but i have to artsy,  craft skills,  besides sewing,  and i didnt feel like going to JoAnn's for material,
 and i wanted to do something like drawing,  but i cant draw if my life depended on it. nbsp;  so instead i continued playing video games,  ate dinner,  plaed more games,
 watch part of Finding Nemo,  then took my nap. nbsp;  i woke up and felt very lazy!  so tomorrow i am going to try to be very unlazy and try to keep myself busy. nbsp;
 but yeah.  i want to take these final moments just to say a couple things,  if you dont understand it,  then just ignore it,  it is meant for a friend i miss so much and am here for as long as he needs. nbsp;
 so here you are:  zia's,  mario winnians,  BIODOME!  we are only humans,  we make mistakes,
 the park- it seems to be our meetin spot!  white rose,  goofy pictures,  chemistry ( blah)
 voicemails,  letters,  matching outfits for dinner,  etc etc.  i tried to get some that werent on the calender,  but i dont think i did too well.
nbsp;  call me sometime!  but anyhey.  * MUAH*  to all of you.
PEACE!
