  So now I'm home from work,  and I finally have time to sit down and really think. nbsp;  Last night,  or this morning,  or whatever,  I met the man of my dreams. nbsp;  I was seriously swept off my feet. nbsp;  It was like he knew exactly the right thing to say to make me swoon. nbsp;  I was captivated by him so much that I didn't even realize it. nbsp;
 I started to open up to him.
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 I actually started to let myself go.  Which is something that after my last relationship,  I swore I would never do again.  &
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 When I realized what was happening to me,  I suddenly pushed him away.
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 I pushed everyone away.
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All my friends,  my mom and dad,  the people at work,
 everyone.
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 I gave Adam my love.
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 And I realized that I had given it to other people,
 my friends,
 as well.
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 Giving someone your love is giving them the power to destroy you,  yet trusting them not to.
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 The last 3 times that I trusted someone,  they destroyed me.
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 I won't let that happen again.
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 So I took back the power.
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 I took back my love.
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 And doing so cost me many friendships.
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 Why do my actions always lead to regret?
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 It seems that no matter what road I decide to take,  I'm always wrong.
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 I guess from now on,  maybe I should try creating my own new path.
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 Not some premade one,  but a path that is all my own.
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 A path that leads me to happiness.
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 I will pave this path in gold,  and never again stray off.
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 I'm not sure what to do now.
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 I feel so lost,
 in&
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a forest of darkness,  with no light shining through.
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 I need help to find where&
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 the new path starts.
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 But I've pushed everyone who knows away!
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 I have to go try to get them back.
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 Maybe I'll have better news later,  or tomorrow.
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 Good bye &
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 ~ Ani 
