  I wish that I could tell someone everything. I guess it is better left unsaid. &nbsp; Yesterday I went to the mall with Mattie around 11. Then, I picked Lauren up and we went to the bandroom where everyone was repainting. It was fun there. Me. Her, AJ, Dave, and Nathan went to Taco Bell, of course. Then I went to Daves later on and watched Big Fish with him and Stephanie.
i couldn't pay all that much attention to it but it was good. &nbsp; I've been thinking and I don't think I'm hurt over Chris, just over what happened. I want someone who knows what he wants, who knows me, who makes me laugh, who is my friend, and I know who that is. Telling him would just mess up everythong so there is really no point. It might not even be him, just someone like him. Oh well, who cares. &nbsp; I need to get ready for flute lessons. I really don't want to go anywhere. And I REALLY don't want to go to work tomorrow. 
