  My husband was on vacation and we where kind of busy. Well we lucked out tremendously, Two different areas in my town where flooded out beyond belief. But I was unharmed and so was my precious basement. I am feeling kind of embarrassed inlaws stopped by this morning and they wanted to see our new bed and I forgot I left a book next to my bed about pregnancy. This would not be a problem if I was anyone else. It just feels to me that anything Matt and I want to do with our lives has to be ran by them first and readied for approval.Well lately they have backed off a bit due to the fact that they are so busy with there lives but the last time it was brought up we got a lot of shit from them.
So in fact Matt and I have decided on our own terms to start having children. We basically told everyone in the world except for his parents. Well I forgot about my book sitting there in plane view entitled"Pregnancy Book".. uhgggggg... Well that is all I need is my inlaws getting on our ass about this when all along it is a decition that is only ours to make. Hell I am not even pregnant yet. At least I don't think I am. I need to wait a few weeks , Like I said Matt and I where busy.
Well all in all it had put me in a bad mood. Not that I like being in a bad mood but it is just one of them things you regret after you think about it. Nothing really happened in my life this week. I found out someone I was friends with ten years ago died about six months ago. Her name was Jolene. We where best friend for a while but we went our separate ways.
Just thinking about it depresses me.I do remember in the end that she was really mean to me so I decided to get new friends. The last time I saw her was 4 years ago and she gave me a big smile. I regret not saying something to her. All I did was smile back. Now that image is forever burnt into my head. Here's to you Jolene.
(Moment of silence)................................................................................................................................. As for What I am doing this week who knows. I found I have a new obsession with Orson Welles. We he is intriguing me so I bought his biography So I will be reading that as well as my "Pregnancy Book" And hopefully my inlaws are blind and they didn't see my book. And hopefully I get that fulltime spot at work. And hopefully I am pregnant. But I just need to wait and see.
As far as being pregnant is concerned I would just like the readers to know that for that last 2 and a half years I have been getting ready to have a baby. I stopped smoking and drinking. I don't even drink coffee. I am on a limited diet now of just the four food groups and I am drinking a ton of water a day and practice yoga. Funny when you consider that about three years ago I was Smoking two packs a day and Smoking pot and drinking every weekend. I really changed.
I have no urge to do any of these things. All I want to happen is for me and Matt to become parents.I pray all the time for it to happen. good bye for now 
