  yeah so today was fun.  I went to& nbsp; church and that about it.  I could have gone to matts with my brother but i decided not to. its still weird right now.
im not sure what i want. and that blows.  because i feel like im leading him on.  and that is not my intentions at all. yeah anyway. softball is finally over!
 well we might have a game on the 27th against tremont.  whoopty freakin doo.  but matt S, john,  jason,  and my brother are going.
 so yeah itll be fun.  We have our end of the year party at skippers house!  thats always fun. Our season went by so fast.  Its like it didnt even happen. but i still think last year was the best out of every summer.
 sigh.  great fun.  anyway. im really glad Goby and steph were on our team this year.  they are the freakin shat!  i love them kids to death!
 well anyway. im not sure what im gonna do for next summer. im seriously thinking about playing for bobby if he gets a team. which has its downfalls like gone every weekend. which isnt fair to my friends but if i want to play i think this is what i have to do. its not so much that i want recognition for playing.
its just that if i want to go far with my softball career i need to put myself out there so they know who i am. and what i can do. but if he doesnt have a team im not sure what ill do i just want to have aprile there with me and stuff. which i know sounds dumb but its more of like a security/ trust thing.  so.
i was thinking yesterday. i have been playing on the midwest spirit team for about. 5 or 6 years. thats a long time. and the games yesterday that we played. could possibly be the last games i ever play for that team.
in a way i kind of feel like a trader for it. because its been the same team and the same people for as long as i can remember and now that we are getting older some of us are going to different places. next year i think we are going to loose alot of our core players. but anyway. i just feel bad just leaving my team hanging there with out a catcher and such. so yeah.
well enough about that. ima go.  later 
