  Don't get me wrong,  I love my life and I know it's nowhere near as difficult as most people. It just feels like my life is falling apart at the seams and crashing down into a pile of rubble.
nbsp;  My best friend and I got into a huge fight the other day and now we're not speaking. nbsp;  The person I love the most is clueless to how I feel. nbsp;  I would tell him,  but every time I open up to a guy and tell him how I feel,
 he runs off in a blind panic due to fear of myself.
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 I've been told that holding one's love inside can make you physically sick. I'm starting to agree.
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 One of my awesome buds is moving fourteen hours away.
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 His father is suffering from terminal cancer. it's a lot better than where it started off at,  but he's not " out of the woods"  just yet.
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 Lastly,  my " sister"  had open heart surgery at the age of fourteen.
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 I'm so scared that something will go wrong and that I will lose her. I don't know what I would do without her.
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 There's so many other little things that are happening,  but those are the main things.
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 I wish that just one of these things would go away.
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 I wish that my best friend and I would resolve our issues,  that I would muster up the courage to tell that special someone how I really feel,  that my bud's father's cancer would go away,
 and that my "
sister"
 gets out of the hospital so&
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I can quit losing sleep over her condition.
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 Frankly,  at this point I wish that I lived in the middle of nowhere with as little human contact as possible.
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 Life would be so much easier that way.
