  Mmmmmmmk. Let me clear my throat. I think I’m having an allergic reaction to all these pine nuts I’ve been eating…they’re some unsalted, un fried mother fuckers that kinda explode on the way down. I’m on a health food kick lately, thinking about going macrobiotic again. It also has to do with the fact that I’m having that swallowing thing again—where the taste of meat makes me gag. UPDATE: ronald reagan is dead.
The war mongering leader of the other dark ages, the one we thought was so bad until this one came along. R.I.P., homey, if you can, considering you go to your grave with the blood of millions on your hands, all of the early victims of AIDS in the U.S., who might not have gotten infected had you released the facts about the disease when they first became apparent. You could have done something—called a state of emergency, gone on all tv stations at once and broadcast the information into every single home everywhere. But no, it was only a bunch of faggots and druggies and low lives who were dying, so you sat on the information. You dyed hair, actor cowboy smiling mother fucker. I spit on yr grave.
Anyway, this post is mainly a response to urlLink my colleague down below. Werd, urlLink Wallpaper Blake —you know that I’ve got mad respect for you, but I’m gonna have to take the mic and breakitdown. Straight off you talked about the futility of urlLink my pissin with the christians . OK, yeah I’ll be the first to admit it’s most likely going to be a struggle that ends in vain. These folks believe one thing, and I believe another, fine, fine. But I resist the notion that “you’ll be prayed for and sacrificed for something you really don’t undersand”.
Because I understand, believe me I do. You see I had my own time on the mountain, with something I thought was Jesus Christ. Maybe it even was Jesus Christ, who knows. There were several of us from town. We drove around in a van and everything. It was all kinds of fucked up, especially towards the end.
And it took someone who was like I am now—someone from the other side who understood to pull me the fuck out so that I’m the well adjusted person you have before you today. Ha, yeah. I know these born again kids so well because for two years I was one. There you have it—the shocking truth about me. All that and a bag of chips. I can get in the minds of these people.
For instance, I don’t think that guy had a heart attack while watching The Ashton of the Christ out of fear . Nah. His heart prolly burst out of pleasure—extreme, total body pleasure at watching his near naked god being brutally murdered on a huge screen in dolby digital surround sound. (can I get extra butter on these, pleasssse?). See the whole problem with fanaticism is that these folks AREN’T scared. As far as they can, they've stripped themselves of that basic human reaction.
Maybe from the perspective of someone like yourself who’s apparently interested in spirituality and is perhaps even quite knowledgeable about several religious texts, having a fierce and devoted attachment to a very SPECIFIC and EXCLUSIONARY way of thinking might seem like it’s cool or interesting, but let me tell you, the church I was in was completely off the chain. The sanity chain, that is. We were ready to give our lives, yo. I’m being completely real with you. And there was no sadness, no quivering—only joy and loud, out-of-tune singing. I was so happy, it was ridiculous.
I’m talking about the very beginning, which as I said before took place on a mountain. In the winter. With the ice and snow, just as it is described by Nietzsche. It was not unlike the beginning of an acid trip—I felt myself floating above my body, and when I touched myself I seemed to be burning. BTW, speaking of terrorists, you asked what was the common thread that allowed me to “lump together” Al Queada, Hamas, Islamic Jihad, and the PLO. Terrorism.
Each one of these groups has openly admitted to engaging and/or promoting terrorist activities that have taken the lives on innocent civilians. Each one of these groups has SWORN not to stop these activities until the dissolution of the state of Israel as well as a host of other demands—but Israel is the big issue. As well as any one who aids the Zionist cause, i.e., the United States. So you see, they do consider us their enemy—these groups have declared jihad upon us. That’s not just like declaring, oh, we don’t like you. No, jihad equals a holy war.
A fight to the death. Some, “you have fucked up my honor and now I have to avenge myself” fer real shit. You point out that it's only me and some crazy dude in bellevue who can even fathom the mere possibility of some one taking over the U.S. Wow. There’s some REAL patriotism fer ya! You can’t even imagine that someone could whup our mighty ass! (yeah...one of the things I go on about with my loony bin friend is about how at one point, our enemies get the idea to fly our own planes into skyscrapers.
The Twin Towers. Yep. And then you know what happens?—they fall down and everyone in them dies and our coward ass president is MIA and no one is at the wheel and we're getting all sorts of conflicting reports, standing in midtown staring up at the chrysler building wondering what's next...) sounds pretty crazy, huh? I think our time, as in the American time, is coming to an end. The great pendulum of history is slowly swinging back out, heading for asia...but that's another post... At the moment, they hate us if for no other reason than because we’re friends with Israel—a friendship that is based, NOT on the fact that Israel is largely Jewish, as is the anti-Semitic train of thought, but because Israel is the only democracy in that region. Yep.
Think about that for a second. The only democracy. I mean, democracy is a funny thing. When it’s really working you don’t think about it. But the other middle eastern countries don’t have any real democracy—at best they have see-thru, flimsy displays of it. These countries are run by dictators and monarchs acting like dictators, or, as in the case of Saudi Arabia, an extremely wealthy theocracy that rules over a population that is very poor and completely without rights or freedoms.
Do you know what they do to you if they think you’re queer in Saudi Arabia? Secret religious police roam the streets, following people and listening in on conversations. An outspoken woman such as myself would not be allowed to exist there. Women are treated like straight-up property in some of these countries, even in the “friendly” ones, like Jordan and Kuwait. They can’t vote, they can’t go to school, they can’t leave. Even in Egypt, a relatively western and modern country, a woman has to get her husband or father to grant her written permission if she wants to leave the country.
It is considered a CRIME if she is caught alone in a house with a man who is not her husband or family member. Tell me, why is this OK? Oh, because it is a different culture than ours and we need to respect that. Yeah? Well then why was it OK to be against apartheid in South Africa? Apartheid is a social system developed by the colonizers of South Africa, the Dutch—its’ been around forever, it’s a part of South African culture.
So why is being against apartheid considered the right and normal thing to do, but being against queers getting stoned isn’t? If being liberal means that I’m supposed to tolerate that which would destroy me, than I’m not a liberal for that reason alone. Speaking of violence—what “facts” do you have about the “systematic eradication” of Palestinians? Because if you’re talking genocide, than you mean mass killing at a mechanized rate (but not necessarily mechanized, as was proven in Rwanda and in other African countries this very second. ) If by this hyperbole you meant to suggest the horror of the Palestinian situation, than I can only agree with you. When I was in Israel a few months ago, I hung out in several cafes where Arab and Jewish Israelis chilled together with no problems.
It was Passover but everyone had big baskets of bread on their tables. Not so much of the country is particularly religious. Again, it’s the fanatics, on both sides, who refuse to relent on this conflict. Meanwhile their children are out smoking joints with one another, listening to hip-hop and dreaming of escaping to India and forgoing their mandatory, four-year army duty. The way I see it, the former terrorist leader Arafat has been the biggest roadblock to peace in this whole thing. The man is concerned with one thing and one thing only—holding on to his power by any means necessary, a feat made all the more ridiculous and harmful in its effects after the Israelis surrounded his compound and consigned him to it.
Why doesn’t he say, OK, enough already! Someone else lead the show—do what’s best for the people! Nope. The prime ministers who have tried to come up and get something done resigned under pressure from him and his PLO goons. You see, doing what’s best for the Palestinian people isn’t really an viable option in Arafat land. Why doesn’t he give up all the names of the terrorist leaders that everyone knows he knows to the UN instead of turning a blind eye to every bus that gets blown to smithereens?
Why didn’t he sign the Camp David peace plan a couple years back, instead of backing out in the 11th hour, demanding that a Palestinian right of return be a part of it. He had EVERYTHING else. Everything. Half of Jerusalem, the West Bank, and most importantly their own internationally recognized country. There was going to be peace but he said no because he wanted the right for every single Palestinian citizen (of Palestine) to be able to pick up and move whenever they wanted into Israel and live their with full rights like every other citizen. Isn’t that wild?
You’re getting your own country but you need to have the right to move to someone else’s whenever you feel like it. Israel isn’t that big, yo. But it’s got infrastructure and industry, so there’s reason to believe that should the Palestinians get right of return, the country would be overrun. That said, it is imperative that Israel pull out of its territories. Sharon needs to tell the fanatics from Brooklyn who ship off to the holy land with “go forth and multiply” ringing in their ears that the dream is over. Time to wakey, wakey and give the land back and end this nightmare.
You hear about he Golan Heights and the West Bank, places that Israel took over after the war in 67. This occupation is a reference point, a touchstone for those who feel Zionism has gone awry. While there’s something to be said for that, what you don’t hear about very often is the situation of that war. I think a lot of Americans don’t know the story. How several countries decided to attack Israel at once. How they put it in their constitutions that they would “push the Israelis into the sea”.
How they waited to attack on Yom Kippur, a holy day of fasting, when they knew the Israelis would be weaker for having not having eaten… The chips were stacked against Israel. By all accounts that shit should have been over. They consider it a miracle that they survived, and the settlers who live in the lands that they won from that conflict (it’s the ultimate underdog story, not only did they win but they beat their collective ass too) point to this miracle as justification that they belong there, that the land has been claimed in the name of a self defending act. (The names of some of these settlements are taken from the names of WWII ghetto resistance fighters. There’s the mentality that “look, you’ve tried repeatedly to erase me, kick me the fuck out of everywhere I try to live and blame me for everything under the sun so now I’m not leaving.”) But leave they must, IMO. That’s the only way out of a fucked up situation—compromise, not everyone gets what they want.
Incidentally, which country in the world gives Palestinians the most aid? The U.S. Everyone goes on about the U.S. giving money to Israel, but the U.S. gives money to a lot of countries, and for every million they give to Israel they try to match it up on the Palestinian side, the idea being that the situation will get worse if there’s a radical disparity in who has what over there. Israel’s not a rich country. I saw out of work, poor folks and a lot of shit wasn’t exactly state-of-the-art. Yeah, but at least they have homes and their own country to live in—you might say. Fair enough.
The refugee situation is totally fucked up. But why don’t people also wave their finger at Jordan, at who’s border millions of displaced Palestinians have been living for years? Jordan refuses to let them in. You have to understand that despite the fact that many are educated, cosmopolitan people, the Palestinians are on the bottom of the Arab ladder. Everyone’s given them the finger at some point. None of these powerful kings and oil sultans want to waste their hard earned capitalist dollar on helping them out, so they tell their uneducated masses that it’s the jews’ fault and maybe america’s fault too which gives all those dispossessed people something to vent their anger out, other than at their government…just like the germans did after WWI.
It’s crazy to me how it’s the same story, all over again. Or I should say, again and again and again. All through out their history, the Jewish people have been hunted down and persecuted, condemned, hated and blamed. I’m not jewish, btw. I’m just trying to step back and see the situation from all sides. I still have the luxury to do that.
I get the paper delivered to my front door. I’ve cried at pictures of dead Palestinian kids and I’ve cried at pictures of dead israeli children. I don’t think either side is to blame. Ultimately, it’s the specter of organized religion that presides over all this—with its long, grim reaper face like that mask in Scream. Werd is bond, I’ve got a lot of luxury. Most people in this world have nothing.
If they have one possession it’s the wooden bowl they hope they’ll be able to put a scrap of food in. And here you and I are, chatting, among other things, about how we’ll need to get cars to get around the city, cuz the trains will be on lock down for the convention… mental note: don’t forget to put “no blood for oil” across the side of my hummer… We are all guilty. Every single one of us in front of our monitors with our iced latte swirl hair gel drugs subwoofer cellphone wall-to-wall organic put that in yr pipe… Dunkin donuts, starbucks…taco hell, kmart, the payphone at the parking lot… (with the broken glass and the gay piece of ass) I don’t know if I want any of it to go on either. In our next and perhaps Final american incarnation, perhaps we can be a little more stripped down. A little skinnier, a little less obnoxious. urlLink Susan Sontag is right, we are those photographs.
And I totally agree with you about the rape shit, abner louima, etc. But then you say “become human and touch the earth?” Whaddya mean? Are you talkin to me in this bit? Cuz lemme assure you that I’m human, alright. Human, all too human. You’re right of course, that I can do better.
Yep. Yr totally right about that, sweetheart. I’mtryini’mtryini’m tryini’m tryin (we’re all kids, letting of steam in one form or another) par example , this manifesto. Anyway, I’ll let you sleep now I lay the mic on the table Having slayed y’all Like Cain slew Abel… Peace, Blake Peace, werld. 
