  Last night was really really weird. The whole night I slept really well, but had these dreams in which I felt extremely sad. It was just waves and waves of sadness. Most of it was feeling sad about seeing Jeremy's friends and having to decide how to handle the situation. I still don't know what I'm going to do. I feel like I need to be honest to myself, but on the other hand I don't want to estrange Jeremy from them any more than he already is. That's all I feel like writing. 
