  Everyday now i have sat and wondered who i am. The answer may be right in front of me, yet i cannot comprehend it. Things are changing to fast, in the present and the near future. Pretty soon i fear i will be bestowed a great lonliness, and i see there is nothing that i can do to undo this. My heart understands pain, but why must it hurt all the time, hurt the way it does? I wish i could find the answers because i don't have them...do you? i ask in knowing i will never recieve a reply...but one day maybe i will be once again fulfilled and truly happy...but maybe that is not a life i am destined to live. I am now to the point where i feel i must kneel down and give up...but would that make any difference? i sit here now and say probably not. I hate my job, i hate who i am....but i must live with it...somewhere there are those who truly care, i go on for them.... 
