  Anyways, been thinking for a little while now. I have an assessment due tomorrow (hence the thinking) but that's not what i was thinking about anyway. I've been studying schizophrenia for my PIP and why stigmas are attached to mental illness. I have a feeling it's messing with my head.
&nbsp; I realise that if certain people read this i will be ruined BUT i doubt if they will bother anyway. So... i feel as if i really need to say something. I can't pray about it, i can't pray about anything lately. I feel stupid for doing it considering how i reacted when i found out that someone else was doing it. &nbsp; About a month or two ago i decided to try self mutilation, nobody from church or school really knows about it but in the holidays i kinda felt a bit down.
Started thinking about why people would do it and what strives them, so... i burnt myself. Surprisingly it doesn't really hurt unless something presses against the blister really hard. Now i'm not saying that i'm going to make a habit of it, but also i'm not 100% sure that i won't do it again. I have to try and act normal around everyone which isn't hard at all coz i'm used to not confiding in anyone. &nbsp; Not sure about how people will react if they read this but oh well. There is nothing i can do no w. &nbsp; later days. 
