  12:05 am just got home from work lot of things on my mind. Can't seem to sleep much these days. Wishing i could change some things in my life but what do i do. Could tranfer to Flordia with the job i have now, but not sure i really want to go that far away from my family. My parents are going down so quick and i don't want to leave them. But god i have to do something i am so unhappy here.
At this point in my life i am very confused about what i really want to do. Can move back to memphis and wouldn't be that far from home and could visit anytime. Mom is to close to my girls and i know she is going to kill me. But i have to get away. Heather is grown now and needs to stand on her own. As long as i am here she will depend on me to much and that will not help her, it will only hurt her in the long run. I may not be around very long and she needs to learn to take care of herself. I wish i could change some of these things i have done lately, i have missed up so bad. Maybe one day things will be ok again. Maybe i can learn from my mistakes....... 
