  babysit Chloe today.  fun. we watched Orange County then went out to the cinema and watched 13 going on 30.  good film -  nice to watch whats her face. the girl from Alias hold her boobs.
hehe i'm such a perv. maube thats because i havnt had any female company for ages -  see you readers gotta understand that a guy has needs. usually sexual but just generally feelin loved too.  but in any case i'm now drunk lol -  i've doped myself up on the vino with dads permision -
 its not like i do this too often anyway. i'm quite good like that.  the holiday to disney land is now all organised -  all i've gotta do is get hold of an itinary ( probably tomorrow)  and then we're off to disneyland.
 i'm really tense about thursday -  results day.  what do i do if i fuck up?  what do i do if i do well?  choosing a uni?  choosing a course?
 what the hell do i do?  its all so confusing.  personally i'd happilly just jump off a bridge at the mo -  but i keep finding reasons why not to:  it could all be alright,  family,
 people who i love etc.  life just issnt easy -  i mean look at the poor fuckers in the 3rd world -  they have nothing but go on living.  told ali that she needs to grow up -  fallin in love with someone who lives hundreds of miles away isnt practical -
 and she should know that by now. i mean shes always feelin sorry for herself -  stupid cow.  why are nearly half my online contacts away or busy?
