  A friend recently asked me "how does one know what to do?". She wants to know if she should become a teacher. I did think about teaching, before, although not too seriously, because it would be to the detriment of family priorities. But I think the larger question is an interesting one. What dictates the choices that we make? And are we "supposed" to make certain choices? I find that the subconscious always seems to know what to do.
Examining the self carefuly in the context of the circumstances of the moment, one can find a beautiful directionality emerging, perhaps only a subtle hint of it, like the light push of a breeze on one’s back, encouraging one along a particular way. The challenge is tuning into that level of subtlety. A prerequisite for such tuning in is non-resistance to any outcome, because complete stillness, complete lack of mental noise allows the patterns to emerge with clarity. The paradox here is that non-resistance implies indifference to all directions, yet our very attempt to non-resist exists from a desire to find direction. Perhaps this is why, the sages concluded that even the desire for direction, for salvation, must dissolve before the final crystal clarity emerges.
I suppose this could well be applied to somewhat shallower goals than nirvana! So what does all this mean? To me, it means that I’m trying to live my life in the moment. Not frivolously, as if the next moment doesn’t exist, but carefully, as if this moment was eternity itself, and the choices that I make of this moment are important. Of course I find this terribly difficult, but I am glad to have started… 
