  There is something glorious about the Blockbuster movie pass. nbsp;  Such freedom in being able to choose what I want to watch and take it home with me with no obligation to return it the next day -
 I love it.
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 It works around my social life quite well since most of the time I enjoy watching movies alone.
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 I don't quite know why I enjoy solitude during that particular act since most of the time I do like to be amongst or at least near other people.
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 Even when I am reading or writing I would rather be in a coffee shop or at a park than at home.
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 I think I am an extroverted introvert or something like that.
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 Actually,  since my trip I belive I have become more of an extrovert than I have ever been.
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 I've really see- sawed between the desire for seclusion and the urge to socialize and now I think I'm all about the social life.
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 I was able to be busy every evening last week and I loved it!
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 I just wanted to be around people,  having a good time and talking and probably getting attention.
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 Maybe that is why I like it so much.
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 It is a way to feed my inner attention- seeking demon.
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 I think I like this more than I would usually care to admit,
 but I suppose it all makes sense when I think about how much I was on stage growing up.
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 I loved hamming it up and having all eyes on me and now that it is the summer and I'm not teaching and I don't have much opportunity to perform I believe I grasp it in the form of my crazy social life.
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 I sound messed up.
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 Maybe I am.
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 This is quite a theraputic thing to do -
 writing my ideas on the internet.
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 I quite like realizing new things about myself while I write and it is a strange thing to note that others could read this if they wanted and they could think whatever they wanted to think about me.
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 It is a bit like creating my own movie.
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 My life in bits and pieces scattered on the internet.  .  .
