  I can't take this job anymore! nbsp;  I swear it is going to be the end of me. nbsp;  One of these days I'm going to call in dead and they're all going to wonder what happened. nbsp;
 I've been thinking about going back to the hospital for a little while. nbsp;  Don't know what it would solve. nbsp;  Everything would be the same .  all the same shit waiting when I got out.
nbsp;  Maybe I could at least get some real rest. nbsp;  Super medicated -  drugged out beyond my wildest imagination rest. nbsp;
 Rest where I don't wake up a million times a night with stupid thoughts in my head. nbsp;  Rest where I don't have to exercise until I drop. nbsp;  Rest where I don't have to take a blade to my skin in order to relax first. nbsp;
 Is that really so much to ask?
